What ARE they?



* I got called to be a primary teacher in my ward.

* I'm a little scared.

* Their 9 years old.

* Maybe a little nervous.

* There's 4 of them.

* Scared and nervous?

* And their all boys!

* Did I mention I'm completely terrified?!!



people watching = judging?



I may be a bad person.  Or as Ryanne so eloguently put it last night "we're going to burn in Hell". 

Last night I went to the movies and since we were going to the theater that was on the work side of town, not the home side of town, I just hungout at work (checked my FB) a few extra minutes and then went early to the movie theater.  I highy recommend doing this.  If the movies had staggering start times so that there was always people in the lobby I wouldn't even need to see a movie.  I could literally sit there and people watch for hours.  Some of these statements may seem a tad on the harsh side but keep in mind only a few were spoken out loud.  I give you:  Random thoughts from a shallow mind.  Don't judge me, you do it too!

When did feathered bangs come back in style?

His pants are wayyyy tooo tight....he has to be gay.

Holy Hell that baby is tiny!  Did she come straight from the delivery room?

You cannot go halfway on a look people!  If you do your hair and make-up like your going to strut the runway, you cannot wear a velour track suit. 

Why is that lady carrying around that mini oxygen tank?  Shouldn't she have the hose on her face instead of in her hands?

When did the combo price jump from $10 to $12?  Don't they know the economy is still bad?

She overpaid for that jacket!  Maybe it was a Christmas gift?  She's still paying with her dignity.

Am I the only person in the world who is still holding out on the whole skinny jeans trend?

Well check out the Kim Kardashian wannabe. 

Oh.  My.  Flower.  Tights.  That is just 18 variety's of wrong!

Burning in Hell?  Maybe.  Fun?  Absolutely.  Where is your favorite spot to people watch?

"but privately....he hit it."

Maybe I am just that unoriginal, but I love to quote movies, tv shows, music, commercials, or people in my life who say stupid things (there's a lot of them).  Last night I was out with friends and the quotes just kept coming.  It was one of those nights.  I laughed so hard.  I'm surprised nothing came out my nose.  This morning I am paying for it.  I feel hungover, or what I imagine hungover would feel like.  Everything has pain.  Even my eyeballs hurt.  When I walk, I can literally feel my brain shifting positions in my head.  But it was worth it.  I'll take a comedy I've seen a dozen times over a drama or action movie any day.  I love funny and I love to laugh and I love SNL.  Enjoy!



Working 9 to 5



So Thanksgiving is over, you can be thankful all year round.

* I had a long post ranting about working in a thankless service industry.

* I didn't erase it.  I'll just wait for another confessional when I'm not so sucidal from the idiot customers.

* I decided to instead confess how grateful I am to have a job.

* There was a time a little over a year ago that I didn't know what I would be doing next.

* I'm grateful to have a job where I genuinely like my boss and co-workers.

* I'm grateful to have a job that I mostly enjoy.

* I'm grateful I have a job that provides with enough money to pay my bills.

* I'm grateful I don't have a cubicle job.  I love the windows in the office, eases that cooped up feeling.

* I'm grateful for a job that gives me unlimited internet access.  Not always, but somedays are really slow and my boss doesn't mind if I'm browsing the web or listen to Nascar qualifying online on Fridays.

* I'm grateful to have a job.

It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas!

* I had pizza for breakfast.

* I have a stash of Christmas candy within 3 feet at all times.

* I am at a total loss as to why I can't drop any lb's???

* I am really gettin into the Christmas spirit this year.

 * I mean singing songs and everything.

* I can't wait to go cut down a tree tomorrow. (and eat at Marv's!!)

* I loathe fake Christmas trees.

* I feel like it just goes against tradition.

* Once, when I was little, my family put up a cedar tree and decorated it (obviously as a joke).

* My Grandma (bless her heart) raved on and on about how beautiful it was.

* When my mom finally called her out on it being an ugly cedar tree, she would not back track, still raved about its beauty.

* I have not bought one single Christmas gift.

* I will run around cussing and paying double on or around the 24th.

* Just like I do every year.

* Maybe that's why it's usually so hard for me to feel the Christmas spirit?

Wedding bands get heavy sometimes, but don't cross that line

5. Case of the Fake People ~ TLC,  So old school.

4. Halo ~ Beyonce

3. He Stopped Lover Her Today ~ George Jones

2. If You Don't Wanna Love Me ~ Cowboy Troy

1. When the Smoke Clears ~ Due West, Thanks Ry for my birthday present!  I love Due West!

What's rockin' your world?

And the award for the worst aunt ever.....

Sometimes your wrong.

I got my niece the cutest outfit for her birthday.  However, the skinny jeans were a little too skinny.  Rather then exchanging for a different size she changed the whole entire outfit!

My adult brain should have told me that it's HER birthday and SHE should get something SHE likes.  Instead my immaturity shined through like a high beam during hunting season and said "it's hideous".  I literally said "It's hideous"...out loud...to her face!  Don't worry I'm not completely vicious. It didn't take long for me to feel so guilty I had to put my big girl pants on and go apologize. Luckily she's way more mature than me and quickly forgave me.

What makes us project onto the little ones in our lives when we should be helping them find their own path?

Confessing Thanksgiving edition

 * It's not really Friday.

* I was gonna apologize for slacking on the posts.

* But then I realized I shouldn't apologize for being out living life.

* I had a wonderful Thanksgiving.

* I'm so thankful for all of my wonderful family.

* Even the ones who couldn't make the smallest effort to be with their own flesh and blood.

* But I ain't bitter.

* Love you guys!

* I loathe "Black Friday" shopping.

* I'd rather pay double than fight those crowds.

* Maybe this is why I have no money?

Hoo are you?



1. Do you ever burp out loud in private or public? Yes and yes, of course the ones in private are usually a lot louder.

2. How often do you get sick each year? I don't get sick that often but when I do it seems to linger f-o-r-e-v-e-r!


3. Would you rather paint a room in your house yourself, or have someone else do it for you? Is that someone else a professional?  Do I have to pay them?  How many years experience?  If there is anyway I can get out of work I will.


4. If you get 30 minutes to yourself, what do you do? Watch tv.  Exciting answer I know but now that I'm living with my brother I don't get the remote that often.


5. Do you allow people to wear shoes in your house? Yes, I don't like when people have you take your shoes off.  I would respect their wishes but I probably wouldn't hang out at their house too often.

When your down

You know how you always wish you could stay in bed all weekend and just lounge in your p.j.'s and relatively do nothing?  Well I did.  And it sucked.  My back was literally trying to kill me all weekend long.  It hurt to stand, sit, roll over, lay down, cough, laugh, sneeze, in general anything that required movement or to stay still.  In honor of this weekends pain I am tweeking my Monday Music and giving you Monday Movies.  My top 5 movies to watch while stuck in bed (at least the ones that kept me sane this weekend).

5. Karate Kid 1, 2, & 3, and the new one with Jaden Smith ~  The fly swatter is my fav scene..."uhhh that's nasty"

4. Young Guns 1 & 2 ~ "Best dollar eighty I ever spent!"

3. Prince of Persia ~  Jake.  Gyllenhaal.

2.  The Man From Snowy River & Return to Snowy River ~  Love me some Jim Craig!  "There's a dozen good brood mares in there, I'll be back for them....and for whatever else is mine"

1. and my #1 that is getting me through life right now if you haven't seen I highly recommend it.  If your around me for more than 5 minutes you have heard the quotes.....BABY MAMA!  ~ "Then I realized that I am, um, I'm man-no, I'm ma-ok, manorexic. & it's really hard because she's so fat, & I love Christopher so much and he's fat, and I'm afraid that the baby's gonna be fat & it's just me and two fatties."

Happy Birthday Edition

Happy birthday Toni! Thanks for everything you do for me!

Suck it Wendy's



* I changed the knob around on my bedroom.

*I told everyone it was because the kids kept walking in while I was getting dressed.

* Really it's so I could lock my brother's kids OUT.

* So I could sleep in.

* I have yet to try it.

* I think they'll just bang on the door until I get up.

* I went to Wendy's for lunch today.

* I don't go there that often because I'm trying to eat healthier.

* Or because they always screw my order up.

* It's one of those 2 options.

* While waiting in the drive thru I imagined throwing my burger at the front window if it wasn't made correctly how I ordered it.

* This is seriously the stuff that goes through my mind.

* It was probably the best burger I've ever had from Wendy's.

* But I still think it would be funny to throw one at their window.

* I may need to look into anger management classes.

According to my Ipod this is what I'm listening to. I give you my top 5:

5. " Only Girl (In the World)" Rihanna

4." Cowgirls Don't Cry" Brooks and Dunn ~ so sad they have ended their career together.

3. "Someday" Nickelback

2. " Bleeding Love" Leona Lewis ~ did you see the routine on SYTYCD a couple seasons ago? L-O-V-E-D it!!

1. "Smoke a Little Smoke" Eric Church ~ while I don't endorse smoking I love me some Eric Church!

So what's rockin' your world?

Just dance, it'll be ok

So it's technically 48 minutes past Friday right now, but I have a good excuse for posting late....and I'll share it as soon as I think of one.  Today's confession is inspired by an aged 30-45 singles dance I attended tonight and here's what I found out.

High school never ends.

We're the same old cliques, just older.

The loners, drama geeks, and jocks were all there tonight.

I don't want to be single anymore.

Yet I found myself cringing everytime a "boy" aproached me.

Even turned my back to him if he tried to join our dance circle.

Does that mean I'm only going for the dancing and punch?

That's sad.

I'm going again tomorrow night.

Is that sad?

So far so good.

Happy to report I did not wake up in a mess of Snicker wrappers all hung over from Halloween.  In fact I wasn't really even tempted.  I've been enjoying the scale numbers going down I just didn't want to ruin it.



Let's review:

Week 1 ~ drink more water

Week 2 ~ run 1 mile 3 times a week

Week 3 ~ no mindless snacks

Week 4 ~ Let's see, how can I punish myself this week?  This week I'm going to add Yoga.  Since I work during all the yoga classes at the gym I'll have to do my sweet yoga dvd I have at home.  Hopefully this will help with the tightness I have in my legs and lower back since I've picked up my 1 mile run.  If not maybe I'll add massage to my Just One Change....maybe I'll do that anyway.

Speak Now

"Real life is a funny thing, you know.  In real life saying the right thing at the right moment is beyond crucial.  So crucial, in fact, that most of us start to hesitate, for fear of saying the wrong thing at the wrong time.  But lately what I've begun to fear more than that is letting the moment pass without saying anything.  There is a time for silence.  There is a time for waiting your turn.  But if you know how you feel, and you clearly know what you need to say, you'll know it." ~ Taylor Swift

So here are my top 5 songs from the new album "Speak Now", and a little lyrical sampling.

5. Mine ~ "you are the best thing, that's ever been mine"

4. Better Than Revenge ~ "she's not a saint, and she's not what you think, she's an actress but she's better known for things that she does on the mattress"


3. Speak Now ~ "all eyes on me, horrified looks from everyone in the room, but I'm only looking at you"

2. Mean ~ "someday I'll be livin' in a big ole city, and all you're ever gonna be is mean, and a liar and pathetic and alone in life and mean, why you gotta be so mean"

1. Back to December ~ "you gave me roses and I left them there to die, you gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye"


Bonus song (puh-leeeze! I can't pick just 5): Haunted ~ "it's getting dark and it's all so quiet and I can't trust anything now, come on, come on, don't leave me like this, I thought I had you figured out"

What time is it?!

 I suck at time management lately.

  I swear I am late to everything.

 I'm even 2 days late posting this confessional.

 It's not my fault.

I make good plans.

But then everyone else screws it up.

Honest.

Trick or NO treats

I started this post Tuesday night and it went something like this...
"Gonna mark this last week down as a big FAIL!  On Thursday I hit the gym with loads of motivation and with Fergie's help got through my mile without dying.  But then...life showed up and I didn't really have time for the gym, but I'll continue to work on this one."

However after further review and my pants not being so damn tight I'm going to dub this week a "work in progress" not a complete failure!

This week I will be working on cutting out the mindless snacks and bad snacks in general.  This will be especially hard since we're just beginning the holiday season.  I sit at a desk all day and sometimes I have a habit to have sancky food around.  It's funny to see my nieces come into the office because they know there are 2 places to look for the good stuff.  I'll just nibble throughout the day even if I'm not hungry.  Also, watching tv is another bad one for me.  I love snacks with a good movie!

I knit sweaters yo!

In honor of Taylor Swift's new album coming out today (yes I bought it already, yes I'm geeky like that) I give you my top 5 T-Swizzle songs:

5. Invisible ~ For the crush who can't see how unbelievable we would be together.
4. Should've Said No ~ I'm glad you didn't, I would have went on blindly loving you all my life.
3. Superstar ~ I know your not right for me but I can't help the way I feel.
2. Untouchable ~ So close, yet so far away.
1. Best Day ~ Takes me back to so many childhood memories with my parents.  I'm blessed.

Girl got street cred.

More CMT Shows   More CMT Videos

It's a love story



* I love the Yankees.

* But, I won't cry if the Rangers win.

 * I love, love underdog stories.

* I also love Josh Hamilton.

* Even though he's kind of a creep.

* What is it about women that makes us love the broken ones?



A day late and 3 pounds less.

Yes technically this should have been posted yesterday.  Better late than never, mama always says (that's just a phrase I don't think I've ever actually hear my mother say that).

I'm going to count this as a success even though  after a few days I had to cut back to 2 bottles.  I'm sorry but do know how many trips to the bathroom come with 64 oz. of water a day???  

I don't know if it's the water or not but I have noticed I have more energy and I'm sleeping A LOT better.  I did lose 3 pounds this week.  Of course the switch from white to wheat bread and light mayo on my turkey sandwich probably helped. 

The agenda for this week is run 1 mile 3 times a week.  This may sound weak considering I usually do 2.5 - 3 miles on the treadmill 2-3 times a week now.  But, here's the thing, I never run a whole mile.  I run/walk

I don't know what it is but I really want to be a runner.  Not like in the marathon sense, but I see people running all the time and they seem like they really enjoy it.  I hate it.  But, I want to love it!

No sex and the city.



I don't know about you, but I'm so sick of seeing all this "celebrate your man week" "husband week" "mommy week" "dad week" and such nonsense on FB.  

I'm gonna be honest the worst has been "mommy week" posting the day you became a mom for the first time.  Besides the fact that no one can decide officially what week it is, they all have it different, it sometimes feels like a dagger to the heart.  Everytime I see that on my home page it reminds me I am one year older next month and not any closer to celebrating my own "mommy week". 

Don't worry about me though, cuz it's "I'm single week" all year long!  And here's how I celebrate:

 
* I go to the movies and I get to pick everytime.  Chick flick?  No complaints here.
* Same goes for dinner.  I always choose the restaraunt.
* If I wanna have oreo's and milk for dinner, I do it.
* I don't have to split holidays with any in-laws. 
* I spend as much money as I want on cute boots and don't have to hide them in the back of the closet.
* I don't need to worry about getting a babysitter.
* Girls Night Out = your life.
* Five words: Full control of the remote.

Bitter?  Just. A. Tad. 

I'm sensing a theme here

I honestly didn't plan it this way, but it's an all girls week.

5. "I Break Things" Ericka Jo ~ sometimes it feels good to throw a dish or two.

4. "Bad Romance" Lady Gaga ~ not a fan of all things Gaga but I believe the pain in her voice when she sings "I don't wanna be friends"

3. "Too Little, Too Late" JoJo ~ With a player like you, I don't have a prayer. 

2. "Samson" Regina Spektor ~ seriously if you can work in the phrase "a slice of wonder bread" in your song, thats awesome writing.

1. "Crazier" Taylor Swift ~ I've never gone with the wind, just let it flow.  I bet it's a good feeling.

Sticky situation

*I hate awkward situations. 

*Even on TV.

*I'll turn the channel if I start to feel too uncomfortable.

*It's like the people inside the TV know I'm watching.

*This is also why I won't tell people when their fly is open.

*Or the have a big green thing in their teeth.

*Or TP out their pants or shoe.

*Let me apologize in advance if this happens to you while your with me.

*Somehow this does not stop me from watching trashy reality shows.

*I don't know why because they show some of the most awkward situations EVER.

It's benefits are numerous

Change?  I can change.  I've thought about this for a few weeks and I haven't joined simply because I'm afraid of failure.

  Yep!  I'm a big chicken. 

But here goes nothing...or  hopefully a whole lot of something.

I joined a gym back in March, yes March.  Yes I still look the same. No I haven't lost a single pound.

That's not exactly accurate I did lose almost 15 at the start, but I'm not counting it cuz it found me again.

I've thought of the many changes I could make:

Give up sweets, I'm not ready.

Give up Coke, I wouldn't make it through the day.

Give up In N Out....Are you trying to kill me?

I'm starting to have second thoughts.  Why is this all about me giving up stuff? 

I've decided to add to my diet.  What you say?  That's insane??  I'll never lose???

Well jokes on you because I'm adding water.  Water has tons of benefits, google it.  Google is the source of all truth.  In my office we stock the 16 ounce bottles so I'll just add 3 of these bad boys to my day and that will fulfill my 8x8 requirement.  What's "8x8" you ask?  Well it's recommeded you drink 8- 8 ounce glasses of water per day.

  Sounds easy right?  Check back next week to see. 

Music Monday

Sometimes the hardest thing about blogging is finding something to write about.  Often times I find myself just wanting to complain.  However, today I got to sleep in until 8!  So not much to complain about here.  I would blog about new things in my life but let's face it, my life is kinda boring.  I mean, I love it but, there's only so many times you can blog about Karate Kid. 

My top 5 songs for this week:

5. Enrique Iglesias "I like it" you'll find yourself fist pumping with the Jersey Shore kids during the chorus.
4. The Band Perry "If I Die Young" loving the lead singers voice.
3. Chris Ledoux "Riding for a Fall" classic heartbreak song.
2. Katy Perry "Teenage Dream"  sorry Ryanne (she hates KP, I can't figure it out)
1. Paula DeAnda "Walk Away (Remember Me)" I can seriously listen to this on repeat all day.  

So there's my top 5 songs I'm listening to right now.  What's rockin' your world?

I'm a hazzard to myself.

Well it started out well enough. I got home from work and decided I was going to fight through my headache and go to the gym. I got dressed, laced up my running shoes and as I pulled into the gym parking lot, I realized my headphones were in my truck. The same truck which is somewhere up North hunting elk with my brother.  I cannot workout without music. What would I listen to?  I can tell you, with no headphones, I end up listening to the hum of the machines which is a motivational killer.

On my way to Kmart to buy headphones (at least my 100th pair this year) I remembered these cute flats I had seen a few months earlier. Also, I've been wanting to buy a new movie. I left Kmart 35 minutes later with a new sports bra.

I was feeling kind of down so I decided to go to Arby's and get some mozzarella sticks. Because really that's what every fat girl needs...fried cheese.  At the pay window I decided to add a chocolate shake. I got it for FREE! Yes the guy at the drive through was so nice he just gave it to me. I suddenly felt vindicated. It's surprising what a little chocolately goodness can do to your mood.

Stop judging, it was a small!  And I still need headphones.

It sure beats the unemployment line

Sometimes, work sucks!

Yesterday I had my Jetblue moment.  I don't want to come off ungrateful to have a job in this economy but is it seriously too much to ask for common courtesy?  I'm doing the best I can.  I'm sorry your $10,000 refrigerator broke but I'm guessing since you can afford that kind of appliance you can afford to pay your bill.  Don't ignore my notices from May until October and then get rude with me because I sent you to collections.  Hey, I sympathize, we've all been in that boat of not being able to pay bills.  All it takes is a phone call.  Let us know you intend to pay it.  Even making a small monthly payment (I mean tiny like $10) will keep your account from going to collections. 

Also, our guys work on commission and they work hard.  So when they come out to your house after hours to service your freezer so you don't lose the "thousands of dollars worth of food" (her words not mine) in it, don't ask me to cut your bill in half because that's taking money out of his pocket.  I won't do it.  Don't ask.  In the future be prepared for someone not to pay money they owe you because it's all really one big circle. 

Pay us, so we can pay them, and they can pay you.

Dear Erin,

Day 30 - A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.


Done. What? You thought I was gonna share it with you?

just a second...UGHH!

Day 29 - Something you hope to change about yourself.


I wish I had more patience. I get super bad anxiety when I'm waiting for someone or hurrying for someone. I usually plan things well in advance to avoid these situations but it seems somebody is always there to screw it up. I wish I could be more spontaneous and fly by the seat of my pants moment to moment. You know, like Pretty Woman?

knocked up

Day 28 - What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?


Well let's just start with the obvious here. If I got someone pregnant I would FREAK out! That is not how I was taught this works. Granted I've been single, and therefore celibate, for a...let's just say while but I think I remember how it works. Now, if I got pregnant...I would FREAK out!

I got my mind on my money and my money on my mind

Day 27 - What's the best thing going for you right now?


I wish this was something jucier but...no. I'm shacked up with my brother and his fam (thanks guys!) for a few months and rented out my house. I'm paying off a lot of debt right now and it feels really good.

40 odd things about me!

Yes, I am aware there are more than 40.

1. Do you like blue cheese? NO

2. Have you ever smoked ? yes, unless my mom reads this then NO!

3. Do you own a gun? yes, fear me.

4. What flavor Kool Aid was your favorite? Black Cherry

5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments? Yes.

6. What do you think of hot dogs? Their delicious...so long as they are covered in chili, cheese, and onions to mask their hideousness.

7. Favorite Christmas movie? Elf

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Milk

9. What's your favorite piece of jewelry? Michigan watch

10. What kind of car do you drive? Cars are for sissy's.

11. Favorite hobby? ....dang, I need a hobby.

12. Do you have A.D.D.? not diagnosed.

13. What's one trait you hate about yourself? low self esteem, thanks for reminding me of all the things that are wrong with me!

14. Middle name? KickAss or Lynn, it's one of those but sometimes I forget.

15. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment? I'm excited to go to the gym tonight. Why am I filling this out. Is that my boss? Crap!

16. Name 3 drinks you regularly have: coke, coke, and ice...with coke

17. Is there a number 1 person in your life? No but I got plenty of #2 ;)

18. Current hate right now? Boys.

19. Favorite place to be? Alone in my room.

20. How did you bring in the New Year? I think I was asleep.

21. Where would you like to go? Florida!

22. Do you own slippers? No but I have them on my list for Santa.

23. What shirt are you wearing? Yankees!

24. Do you like sleeping on satin? never tried it.

25. Can you whistle? yes, but only when no one is around.

26. What's your favorite movie? I can't remember. All movies have been removed from my memory after seeing Karate Kid 56 times in one week.

27. Would you be a pirate? Hell yeah.

28. What songs do you sing in the shower? right now Jarrod Neimann - Lover, Lover. It's catchy!

29. What's in your pocket right now? lip gloss

30. Last thing that made you laugh? Paxton and Tayson singing me the Good Morning song.

31. Best bed sheets as a child? Wonder Woman!! I've always wanted to be her for Halloween but they always slut up her costume.

32. Worst injury you've ever had? broken wrist

33. Do you love where you live? It's a love/hate relationship. I love the little kiddo's scampering in my room in the morning I just wished it wasn't at 4 am.

34. How many TVs do you have in your house? when I had my house...2

35. Who is your loudest friend? I can't think of anyone...does that mean it's me??

36. How many dogs do you have? 1 but she's the best in the world.

37. Does someone have a crush on you? just Jake. As in Gyllenhaal.

38. What is your favorite book(s)? none. Fav writer Anita Stansfield

39. What is your favorite candy? chocolate

40. Favorite Sports Team? Michigan

Live or die....die....WRONG! honnnnkkk!

Day 26 - Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?


Nope. Never.

Angels workin overtime

Day 25 - The reason you believe you're still alive today.


I'm not really sure. I know I've done plenty of stupid things that should have spelled the end for me but I'm still kickin! When I was 16 I rolled my mom's car. I wasn't wearing a seatbelt. It hurt like hell. When I was walking home a sheriff found me, he told me he had spent about 30 minutes walking around the crash site looking for my body since he was sure no one could have survived. He told me how lucky I was to be alive. When I got to the clinc the doctor examining me told me I had a pretty good concussion and was going to have some nasty bruises. He said someone must have been looking out for me because I was lucky to be alive.

Green Day - I hope you had the time of your life

Day 24 - Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Post the titles and artists and a letter)


I'm gonna do this a little different. So just go with it.

Dad - Luther Vandross "Dance With My Father" - Thanks for...EVERYTHING!

Bethany - Jann Arden - Whenever I think of you and music, I think of that lost (stolen) cd.

Christy - Eminem "Shake That" - Good times.

Myndee - Devo "Whip It" - Thanks for always pushing me that extra mile at the gym.

Nick - George Strait "The Cowboy Rides Away" - Thanks for breaking my heart when you knew we weren't right.

Prella - Kenny Chesney "She's Got it All" - Thanks for Boulder Mountain. Best. Time. Ever.

Ryanne - Webb Pierce "In the Jailhouse Now" - I just feel like someday I'm gonna have to bail you out.

Stephen - Colbie Caillat "Realize" - I can't spell it out for you.

Kiss me

Day 23 - Something you wish you had done in your life.


Well...there's this boy...I wished I would have kissed him but I didn't.

Rule #51: Sometimes - your wrong

Day 22 - Something you wish you hadn't done in your life.


Honestly, I am not trying to cop out here but, I've thought about this for a while and I just can't pick one thing. I have made several mistakes in life but as I look back I realized that they are no longer mistakes, they are lessons learned.

Buckle up! It's the law

Day 21 - (senario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?


Depends. How bad was the fight? Was she ramming me with her car? I mean we were just in a fight an hour ago. These things happen, people are crazy! All kidding aside, of course I would be there for her and whatever she needed.

D&C Section 89

Day 20 - Your views on drugs and alcohol.


Drugs are bad. Alcohol is a drug. I was told once that alcohol wasn't bad that it was "self medication" for all the crap in life. Well I say, cowboy up! Everybody has bad days, everybody has trials in life. It's no reason to waste your life away and hurt others around you, especially those people that love and care about you.

"Be the change you want to see in the world" - Gandhi

Day 19 - What do you think of religion, or what do you think of politics?



Religion - Article of Faith #11 "We claim the privilege of worshiping Almighty God according to the dictates of our own conscience, and allow all men the same privilege, let them worship how, where, or what they may."

Politics - I've never been too interested. Maybe because it's a lot of arguing and not much doing. I don't think that politicians get much accomplished and I think about 90% are bad people. Maybe they don't start out that way, however, I've always believed that money and power won't make a person evil. More money and more power just makes a man more of what he already is. I believe a lot of money is wasted on witch hunts. There are children in our own communities going without food, without education, while these politicians waste billions arguing over steroids in baseball. It's ridiculous!

Marriage between man and woman is essential to His eternal plan

Day 18 - Your views on gay marriage.


Family: A Proclamation to the World.

I know what you are...say it...out loud

Day 17 - A book you've read that changed your views on something.


Well I think it would have to be the book that has forever changed the world. Twilight. I think everyone can agree that werewolves and vampires used to be something scarey that would make little girls cry and scream in the night. But now we know them as Jacob and Edward. Sexy men that make women cry and scream in the night.

Wanted dead or alive...preferably dead

Day 16 - Someone or something you definitely could live without.


Cockroaches. Seriously, I think I threw up a little just typing that. They are so disgusting and serve absolutly no pupose. Except to annoy me. Which they do.

What's on your mind

Day 15 - Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.


Oh Facebook! Ours is a love/hate relationship. I feel like a slave to its never ending gossip. I once tried to quit for 24 hours, I think I made it to hour 18 or was it 1.8? I really don't know because I felt so cut off from the outside world I think I lost all track of time. Sometimes when I'm out I have to remind myself that I'm out with actual people and it's not normal to FB eachother when we're sitting at the same table sharing nachos. But it happens. I love to snoop on other people's pages that I know but I'm not "friends" with (stop judging me!). Speaking of "friends" I find it odd that I have 143 friends on FB, I could cut that back to about 7 and be ok with it. Because really the other 136 are either there for entertainment purposes or because I didn't want to be rude.

You don't even look Italian

Day 14 - A hero that has let you down. (letter)


Dear Sammi "Sweetheart" Giancola

I thought you were going to be the best one of the group. I mean you went to college and played soccer. But...NO! You billed yourself as "the sweetest (ryhmes with witch) you'll ever meet". Sorry but I was pushed around in second grade by worse "sweethearts" than you. You have flopped in season 2. Nothing worth quoting from you at all. Even your fight with Jwow was bor-ing.

AND another thing. Have you never seen "Two Can Play That Game"? Obviously not, because you let your man creep with a bunch of ho's at the club then come and crawl in bed with you...eww! On so many levels, eww. Then you broke rule numero uno (that's right I'm cursing you in 2 languages) by turning your back on your girls when they told you the truth about Ronnie.

Vivica A Fox has taught me nothing if not this:
When your man messes up you have got to punish him, no matter how small it is.
Rule #1: Never panic. Act like it doesn't bother you one bit.
Rule #2: Never let your girlfriends know the whole situation. They'll give you bad advice and ruin your confidence...and confidence is key.
Rule #3: Break up with him before he breaks up with you. Whoever breaks up with the person first, wins!

Ok, maybe it's not the best advice ever but, she ends up with the guy before the credits roll.

Sing it sister!

Day 13 - A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough days. (write a letter.)


Dear Kelly,

Girl you got it all! Confidence? Check. Happiness? Check. Wealth? check, check. Thanks for always being there with a song to match my mood. Whether it be nursing a broken heart, plotting revenge for said broken heart, or gettin ready to rock a girls night out.

sample lyrics:
"Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me but everyone around me."
"Could this be the greatest love of all, I wanna know that you will catch me when I fall."
"We were always meant to say goodbye"
"I would never wish bad things, but I don't wish you well"
"Since you been gone, I can breathe for the first time. I'm so movin on yeah, yeah. Thanks to you, now I get, I get what I want"

What Not To Wear

Day 12 - Something you never get compliments on.


My fashion sense. I've always been more of a jeans and t-shirt person but once in while I wish I was more fashionista and less "where'd you park your tractor".

Why thank you!

Day 11 - Something people seem to compliment you the most on.


This is a tough one. I don't really get a lot of compliments or if I do I don't remember. But as I was thinking about this I wondered, why are we so quick to believe the bad things people say about us? Not only do we believe them we carry it for years, when a compliment is quickly dismissed. What makes it so difficult for a woman to receive a compliment? Tell a woman her outfit is great, and the usual answer: 'What, this old thing?' Tell her she looks well, and she'll respond: 'You mean I look fat, don't you.' Exclaim that you love her new haircut, and she'll accuse you of hating the old one.

No wonder men sometimes feel it's better to say nothing at all. Women, just say "thank you" and smile!

Secondly, I wondered why are we so quick to say the mean things and leave the compliments unspoken. A few years ago, pre-divorce when I was trying to be a better wife, I realized I never told him a lot of the good things I appreciated or thought. Sometimes I would look at him and think "that's my favorite shirt, he looks really good in that color" or "I really appreciate that he makes me breakfast every morning". But, I never said them out loud I just assumed he knew. When we were trying to "make things work" I decided I'm going to make sure I said these things out loud. And when he ticks me off and I want to speak my mind, I'm gonna think twice. Of course, it takes more than nice compliments to make a marriage work and I moved on, but it taught me a beautiful lesson. Don't hold in a nice compliment. You never know when it will be exactly what that person needs to hear. Even for a stranger but especially for those you love.

Luke 6:37

Day 10 - Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.


Let's call this one....Thorn, because that's what this person is. A big thorn in my side. I don't know if it's because I dislike confrontation so much or I'm just so angelic (your right it's the first one), but I just can't write this person off for good. Thorn has done some down right mean things and Thorn is such a gossip and back biter. Thorn causes drama where ever Thorn goes. Thorn complains about the most absurd things. Thorn is the type of person to say "I would never do that to someone" and 5 minutes later doing it. Thorn is such a freaking liar it literally almost kills me!! That being said I've spread my share of gossip and hurt feelings and I believe in forgiveness. No one is perfect. We all have things we need to apologize for. I guess I hope that if I'm forgiving as we've been instructed to do, that I'll always be forgiven for my wrongs.

A season for everything.

Day 9 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.


While I have several people I wish I still had contact with I can't really pick one person (yeah its a cop out). I believe people come into your life for a reason and sometimes only for a season. A lot of times the people that are in your life for a small period of time are the ones who make the biggest impact, so cherish that time spent with them.

I'm a survivor

Day 8 - Someone who made your life hell or treated you like...poo.


Once again no names because that's not how I roll. I am however going to borrow a few lines from Destiny's Child and let him know:

I'm wishin' you the best,
Pray that you are blessed,
Much success, no stress, and lots of happiness,
I'm not gonna blast you on the radio,
I'm not gonna lie on you or your family, yo,
I'm not gonna hate you in the magazine,
I'm not gonna compromise my Christianity,
You know I'm not gonna diss you on the Internet
Cause my momma taught me better than that!

Family...it's about time

Day 7 - Someone who has made your life worth living for.


I'm a lucky lady because I have several people who make my life worth living, but I'll just stick to the important 8.

It's the real thing

Day 6 - Something you hope you never have to do.


I hope I never have to officially give up drinking Coke. I know I've threatened every once in a while but what I really mean when I say "I'm giving up soda" is "Maybe I should cut back". There's just something so satisfying about washing down your In-N-Out animal style fries with a Classic Coca Cola that makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside...ok so maybe its the carbonation burning my esophagus but still, it hits the spot.

Ladies, start your engines.

Day 5 - Something you hope to do in your life.


Coincedently this item is number 5 on my bucket list (yes I have one). Drive a stock car at a touring Nascar track. Meaning it can't be some old track no one goes to anymore. It has to be LVMS, or Bristol, or Daytona and NOT a ride along. I want to drive the car.

Your only hurting yourself

Day 4 - Something you have to forgive someone for.

I've never really been one to hold grudges. So I'm not going to pick one thing because that would be like saying its the worst thing that's ever happened to me. At the same time there are things in my life that I have to re-forgive people for every now and again. Sometimes you'll think you've forgiven someone for a wrong and out of no where you'll start to have feelings of anger all over again. However, I've seen enough in life to know that holding back forgiveness from someone, even if they haven't asked for it, is the worst thing you can do to you. It takes a lot of energy to hate someone and usually the person who has wronged you has long since moved on.

SPEAK UP!

Day 3 - Something you have to forgive yourself for.

So this would be the ugly and embarrassing part I mention earlier. This may sound dumb but I have carried this with me for 13 years. Once on an FFA trip one of my very dear friends, Coca Cola, was berating another girl in front of everyone. She was telling Pepsi what an awful person her father was. I knew better. I knew what a good man he was. He was my bishop and did so much for my family. Obviously no one is perfect but no matter what Coca Cola thought of this man, it was unfair of her to put that burden on his daughters shoulders. Family is a line you just don't cross. I have a mental picture burned into my brain of Pepsi's face while this was happening, how sad she looked. I feel ashamed that I didn't stand up for her or her father and make this ridicule stop. Why is it so difficult to stand up to a friend when they do something you know is not right? Everything inside of me was screaming to say something, anything, even if it was just to change the subject. I didn't, I sat there like a coward. I don't think I'll ever fully forgive myself until I apologize to her and she forgives me.

side note: Obviously the names have been changed because I'm not calling anyone out here, this is about me. Also, it would be ridiculous for anyone to name their kids Coca Cola or Pepsi...seriously don't do it.