It sure beats the unemployment line

Sometimes, work sucks!

Yesterday I had my Jetblue moment.  I don't want to come off ungrateful to have a job in this economy but is it seriously too much to ask for common courtesy?  I'm doing the best I can.  I'm sorry your $10,000 refrigerator broke but I'm guessing since you can afford that kind of appliance you can afford to pay your bill.  Don't ignore my notices from May until October and then get rude with me because I sent you to collections.  Hey, I sympathize, we've all been in that boat of not being able to pay bills.  All it takes is a phone call.  Let us know you intend to pay it.  Even making a small monthly payment (I mean tiny like $10) will keep your account from going to collections. 

Also, our guys work on commission and they work hard.  So when they come out to your house after hours to service your freezer so you don't lose the "thousands of dollars worth of food" (her words not mine) in it, don't ask me to cut your bill in half because that's taking money out of his pocket.  I won't do it.  Don't ask.  In the future be prepared for someone not to pay money they owe you because it's all really one big circle. 

Pay us, so we can pay them, and they can pay you.

Dear Erin,

Day 30 - A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.


Done. What? You thought I was gonna share it with you?

just a second...UGHH!

Day 29 - Something you hope to change about yourself.


I wish I had more patience. I get super bad anxiety when I'm waiting for someone or hurrying for someone. I usually plan things well in advance to avoid these situations but it seems somebody is always there to screw it up. I wish I could be more spontaneous and fly by the seat of my pants moment to moment. You know, like Pretty Woman?

knocked up

Day 28 - What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?


Well let's just start with the obvious here. If I got someone pregnant I would FREAK out! That is not how I was taught this works. Granted I've been single, and therefore celibate, for a...let's just say while but I think I remember how it works. Now, if I got pregnant...I would FREAK out!

I got my mind on my money and my money on my mind

Day 27 - What's the best thing going for you right now?


I wish this was something jucier but...no. I'm shacked up with my brother and his fam (thanks guys!) for a few months and rented out my house. I'm paying off a lot of debt right now and it feels really good.

40 odd things about me!

Yes, I am aware there are more than 40.

1. Do you like blue cheese? NO

2. Have you ever smoked ? yes, unless my mom reads this then NO!

3. Do you own a gun? yes, fear me.

4. What flavor Kool Aid was your favorite? Black Cherry

5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments? Yes.

6. What do you think of hot dogs? Their delicious...so long as they are covered in chili, cheese, and onions to mask their hideousness.

7. Favorite Christmas movie? Elf

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Milk

9. What's your favorite piece of jewelry? Michigan watch

10. What kind of car do you drive? Cars are for sissy's.

11. Favorite hobby? ....dang, I need a hobby.

12. Do you have A.D.D.? not diagnosed.

13. What's one trait you hate about yourself? low self esteem, thanks for reminding me of all the things that are wrong with me!

14. Middle name? KickAss or Lynn, it's one of those but sometimes I forget.

15. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment? I'm excited to go to the gym tonight. Why am I filling this out. Is that my boss? Crap!

16. Name 3 drinks you regularly have: coke, coke, and ice...with coke

17. Is there a number 1 person in your life? No but I got plenty of #2 ;)

18. Current hate right now? Boys.

19. Favorite place to be? Alone in my room.

20. How did you bring in the New Year? I think I was asleep.

21. Where would you like to go? Florida!

22. Do you own slippers? No but I have them on my list for Santa.

23. What shirt are you wearing? Yankees!

24. Do you like sleeping on satin? never tried it.

25. Can you whistle? yes, but only when no one is around.

26. What's your favorite movie? I can't remember. All movies have been removed from my memory after seeing Karate Kid 56 times in one week.

27. Would you be a pirate? Hell yeah.

28. What songs do you sing in the shower? right now Jarrod Neimann - Lover, Lover. It's catchy!

29. What's in your pocket right now? lip gloss

30. Last thing that made you laugh? Paxton and Tayson singing me the Good Morning song.

31. Best bed sheets as a child? Wonder Woman!! I've always wanted to be her for Halloween but they always slut up her costume.

32. Worst injury you've ever had? broken wrist

33. Do you love where you live? It's a love/hate relationship. I love the little kiddo's scampering in my room in the morning I just wished it wasn't at 4 am.

34. How many TVs do you have in your house? when I had my house...2

35. Who is your loudest friend? I can't think of anyone...does that mean it's me??

36. How many dogs do you have? 1 but she's the best in the world.

37. Does someone have a crush on you? just Jake. As in Gyllenhaal.

38. What is your favorite book(s)? none. Fav writer Anita Stansfield

39. What is your favorite candy? chocolate

40. Favorite Sports Team? Michigan

Live or die....die....WRONG! honnnnkkk!

Day 26 - Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?


Nope. Never.

Angels workin overtime

Day 25 - The reason you believe you're still alive today.


I'm not really sure. I know I've done plenty of stupid things that should have spelled the end for me but I'm still kickin! When I was 16 I rolled my mom's car. I wasn't wearing a seatbelt. It hurt like hell. When I was walking home a sheriff found me, he told me he had spent about 30 minutes walking around the crash site looking for my body since he was sure no one could have survived. He told me how lucky I was to be alive. When I got to the clinc the doctor examining me told me I had a pretty good concussion and was going to have some nasty bruises. He said someone must have been looking out for me because I was lucky to be alive.

Green Day - I hope you had the time of your life

Day 24 - Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Post the titles and artists and a letter)


I'm gonna do this a little different. So just go with it.

Dad - Luther Vandross "Dance With My Father" - Thanks for...EVERYTHING!

Bethany - Jann Arden - Whenever I think of you and music, I think of that lost (stolen) cd.

Christy - Eminem "Shake That" - Good times.

Myndee - Devo "Whip It" - Thanks for always pushing me that extra mile at the gym.

Nick - George Strait "The Cowboy Rides Away" - Thanks for breaking my heart when you knew we weren't right.

Prella - Kenny Chesney "She's Got it All" - Thanks for Boulder Mountain. Best. Time. Ever.

Ryanne - Webb Pierce "In the Jailhouse Now" - I just feel like someday I'm gonna have to bail you out.

Stephen - Colbie Caillat "Realize" - I can't spell it out for you.

Kiss me

Day 23 - Something you wish you had done in your life.


Well...there's this boy...I wished I would have kissed him but I didn't.

Rule #51: Sometimes - your wrong

Day 22 - Something you wish you hadn't done in your life.


Honestly, I am not trying to cop out here but, I've thought about this for a while and I just can't pick one thing. I have made several mistakes in life but as I look back I realized that they are no longer mistakes, they are lessons learned.

Buckle up! It's the law

Day 21 - (senario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?


Depends. How bad was the fight? Was she ramming me with her car? I mean we were just in a fight an hour ago. These things happen, people are crazy! All kidding aside, of course I would be there for her and whatever she needed.

D&C Section 89

Day 20 - Your views on drugs and alcohol.


Drugs are bad. Alcohol is a drug. I was told once that alcohol wasn't bad that it was "self medication" for all the crap in life. Well I say, cowboy up! Everybody has bad days, everybody has trials in life. It's no reason to waste your life away and hurt others around you, especially those people that love and care about you.

"Be the change you want to see in the world" - Gandhi

Day 19 - What do you think of religion, or what do you think of politics?



Religion - Article of Faith #11 "We claim the privilege of worshiping Almighty God according to the dictates of our own conscience, and allow all men the same privilege, let them worship how, where, or what they may."

Politics - I've never been too interested. Maybe because it's a lot of arguing and not much doing. I don't think that politicians get much accomplished and I think about 90% are bad people. Maybe they don't start out that way, however, I've always believed that money and power won't make a person evil. More money and more power just makes a man more of what he already is. I believe a lot of money is wasted on witch hunts. There are children in our own communities going without food, without education, while these politicians waste billions arguing over steroids in baseball. It's ridiculous!

Marriage between man and woman is essential to His eternal plan

Day 18 - Your views on gay marriage.


Family: A Proclamation to the World.

I know what you are...say it...out loud

Day 17 - A book you've read that changed your views on something.


Well I think it would have to be the book that has forever changed the world. Twilight. I think everyone can agree that werewolves and vampires used to be something scarey that would make little girls cry and scream in the night. But now we know them as Jacob and Edward. Sexy men that make women cry and scream in the night.

Wanted dead or alive...preferably dead

Day 16 - Someone or something you definitely could live without.


Cockroaches. Seriously, I think I threw up a little just typing that. They are so disgusting and serve absolutly no pupose. Except to annoy me. Which they do.

What's on your mind

Day 15 - Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.


Oh Facebook! Ours is a love/hate relationship. I feel like a slave to its never ending gossip. I once tried to quit for 24 hours, I think I made it to hour 18 or was it 1.8? I really don't know because I felt so cut off from the outside world I think I lost all track of time. Sometimes when I'm out I have to remind myself that I'm out with actual people and it's not normal to FB eachother when we're sitting at the same table sharing nachos. But it happens. I love to snoop on other people's pages that I know but I'm not "friends" with (stop judging me!). Speaking of "friends" I find it odd that I have 143 friends on FB, I could cut that back to about 7 and be ok with it. Because really the other 136 are either there for entertainment purposes or because I didn't want to be rude.

You don't even look Italian

Day 14 - A hero that has let you down. (letter)


Dear Sammi "Sweetheart" Giancola

I thought you were going to be the best one of the group. I mean you went to college and played soccer. But...NO! You billed yourself as "the sweetest (ryhmes with witch) you'll ever meet". Sorry but I was pushed around in second grade by worse "sweethearts" than you. You have flopped in season 2. Nothing worth quoting from you at all. Even your fight with Jwow was bor-ing.

AND another thing. Have you never seen "Two Can Play That Game"? Obviously not, because you let your man creep with a bunch of ho's at the club then come and crawl in bed with you...eww! On so many levels, eww. Then you broke rule numero uno (that's right I'm cursing you in 2 languages) by turning your back on your girls when they told you the truth about Ronnie.

Vivica A Fox has taught me nothing if not this:
When your man messes up you have got to punish him, no matter how small it is.
Rule #1: Never panic. Act like it doesn't bother you one bit.
Rule #2: Never let your girlfriends know the whole situation. They'll give you bad advice and ruin your confidence...and confidence is key.
Rule #3: Break up with him before he breaks up with you. Whoever breaks up with the person first, wins!

Ok, maybe it's not the best advice ever but, she ends up with the guy before the credits roll.

Sing it sister!

Day 13 - A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough days. (write a letter.)


Dear Kelly,

Girl you got it all! Confidence? Check. Happiness? Check. Wealth? check, check. Thanks for always being there with a song to match my mood. Whether it be nursing a broken heart, plotting revenge for said broken heart, or gettin ready to rock a girls night out.

sample lyrics:
"Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me but everyone around me."
"Could this be the greatest love of all, I wanna know that you will catch me when I fall."
"We were always meant to say goodbye"
"I would never wish bad things, but I don't wish you well"
"Since you been gone, I can breathe for the first time. I'm so movin on yeah, yeah. Thanks to you, now I get, I get what I want"

What Not To Wear

Day 12 - Something you never get compliments on.


My fashion sense. I've always been more of a jeans and t-shirt person but once in while I wish I was more fashionista and less "where'd you park your tractor".

Why thank you!

Day 11 - Something people seem to compliment you the most on.


This is a tough one. I don't really get a lot of compliments or if I do I don't remember. But as I was thinking about this I wondered, why are we so quick to believe the bad things people say about us? Not only do we believe them we carry it for years, when a compliment is quickly dismissed. What makes it so difficult for a woman to receive a compliment? Tell a woman her outfit is great, and the usual answer: 'What, this old thing?' Tell her she looks well, and she'll respond: 'You mean I look fat, don't you.' Exclaim that you love her new haircut, and she'll accuse you of hating the old one.

No wonder men sometimes feel it's better to say nothing at all. Women, just say "thank you" and smile!

Secondly, I wondered why are we so quick to say the mean things and leave the compliments unspoken. A few years ago, pre-divorce when I was trying to be a better wife, I realized I never told him a lot of the good things I appreciated or thought. Sometimes I would look at him and think "that's my favorite shirt, he looks really good in that color" or "I really appreciate that he makes me breakfast every morning". But, I never said them out loud I just assumed he knew. When we were trying to "make things work" I decided I'm going to make sure I said these things out loud. And when he ticks me off and I want to speak my mind, I'm gonna think twice. Of course, it takes more than nice compliments to make a marriage work and I moved on, but it taught me a beautiful lesson. Don't hold in a nice compliment. You never know when it will be exactly what that person needs to hear. Even for a stranger but especially for those you love.

Luke 6:37

Day 10 - Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.


Let's call this one....Thorn, because that's what this person is. A big thorn in my side. I don't know if it's because I dislike confrontation so much or I'm just so angelic (your right it's the first one), but I just can't write this person off for good. Thorn has done some down right mean things and Thorn is such a gossip and back biter. Thorn causes drama where ever Thorn goes. Thorn complains about the most absurd things. Thorn is the type of person to say "I would never do that to someone" and 5 minutes later doing it. Thorn is such a freaking liar it literally almost kills me!! That being said I've spread my share of gossip and hurt feelings and I believe in forgiveness. No one is perfect. We all have things we need to apologize for. I guess I hope that if I'm forgiving as we've been instructed to do, that I'll always be forgiven for my wrongs.

A season for everything.

Day 9 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.


While I have several people I wish I still had contact with I can't really pick one person (yeah its a cop out). I believe people come into your life for a reason and sometimes only for a season. A lot of times the people that are in your life for a small period of time are the ones who make the biggest impact, so cherish that time spent with them.

I'm a survivor

Day 8 - Someone who made your life hell or treated you like...poo.


Once again no names because that's not how I roll. I am however going to borrow a few lines from Destiny's Child and let him know:

I'm wishin' you the best,
Pray that you are blessed,
Much success, no stress, and lots of happiness,
I'm not gonna blast you on the radio,
I'm not gonna lie on you or your family, yo,
I'm not gonna hate you in the magazine,
I'm not gonna compromise my Christianity,
You know I'm not gonna diss you on the Internet
Cause my momma taught me better than that!

Family...it's about time

Day 7 - Someone who has made your life worth living for.


I'm a lucky lady because I have several people who make my life worth living, but I'll just stick to the important 8.

It's the real thing

Day 6 - Something you hope you never have to do.


I hope I never have to officially give up drinking Coke. I know I've threatened every once in a while but what I really mean when I say "I'm giving up soda" is "Maybe I should cut back". There's just something so satisfying about washing down your In-N-Out animal style fries with a Classic Coca Cola that makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside...ok so maybe its the carbonation burning my esophagus but still, it hits the spot.

Ladies, start your engines.

Day 5 - Something you hope to do in your life.


Coincedently this item is number 5 on my bucket list (yes I have one). Drive a stock car at a touring Nascar track. Meaning it can't be some old track no one goes to anymore. It has to be LVMS, or Bristol, or Daytona and NOT a ride along. I want to drive the car.

Your only hurting yourself

Day 4 - Something you have to forgive someone for.

I've never really been one to hold grudges. So I'm not going to pick one thing because that would be like saying its the worst thing that's ever happened to me. At the same time there are things in my life that I have to re-forgive people for every now and again. Sometimes you'll think you've forgiven someone for a wrong and out of no where you'll start to have feelings of anger all over again. However, I've seen enough in life to know that holding back forgiveness from someone, even if they haven't asked for it, is the worst thing you can do to you. It takes a lot of energy to hate someone and usually the person who has wronged you has long since moved on.

SPEAK UP!

Day 3 - Something you have to forgive yourself for.

So this would be the ugly and embarrassing part I mention earlier. This may sound dumb but I have carried this with me for 13 years. Once on an FFA trip one of my very dear friends, Coca Cola, was berating another girl in front of everyone. She was telling Pepsi what an awful person her father was. I knew better. I knew what a good man he was. He was my bishop and did so much for my family. Obviously no one is perfect but no matter what Coca Cola thought of this man, it was unfair of her to put that burden on his daughters shoulders. Family is a line you just don't cross. I have a mental picture burned into my brain of Pepsi's face while this was happening, how sad she looked. I feel ashamed that I didn't stand up for her or her father and make this ridicule stop. Why is it so difficult to stand up to a friend when they do something you know is not right? Everything inside of me was screaming to say something, anything, even if it was just to change the subject. I didn't, I sat there like a coward. I don't think I'll ever fully forgive myself until I apologize to her and she forgives me.

side note: Obviously the names have been changed because I'm not calling anyone out here, this is about me. Also, it would be ridiculous for anyone to name their kids Coca Cola or Pepsi...seriously don't do it.

On a good day

Day 2 - Something you love about yourself


My hair. I know, I'm vain. But I love the way it looks on a good day. Yeah we all have bad hair days, but sometimes it goes perfect. I love those days. I've always had long hair, except for a few occassions when I've been traumatized by life and for some unknown reason chopped it off. It feels theraputic, like leaving an old life (or ex-husband) behind. I love when my nieces braid it. I love trying new styles. I love the way it protects me when I'm out with the girls and some "don't take no for an answer Adam" won't leave me alone, it's nice to kind of brush it across your shoulder and pretend its a wall and he can no longer see you.

Let's get this party started

No time like the present right.





Day 1 - Something you hate about yourself.

I'm not that creative. I love creative things. I wish I was the type of person who had amazing scrapbooks and homemade cards and lived in a batchorlette pad right out of the Ikea catalog but my house looks more like someone blew up a Dale Earnhardt Jr souvenir trailer. Don't get me wrong, I love my Nascar stuff, but there's always someone who walks in for the first time and has this look like "did a 10 year old boy decorate this or what are we goin for here?".

30 Days of Truth

I saw this on a blog this morning and thought "this seems pretty fun". Then as I started to read what it is I have to be truthful about I thought "this could get ugly and emabarrassing!". So, yep, I'm goin for it.





Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself