Ladies, start your engines.

Day 5 - Something you hope to do in your life.


Coincedently this item is number 5 on my bucket list (yes I have one). Drive a stock car at a touring Nascar track. Meaning it can't be some old track no one goes to anymore. It has to be LVMS, or Bristol, or Daytona and NOT a ride along. I want to drive the car.

Your only hurting yourself

Day 4 - Something you have to forgive someone for.

I've never really been one to hold grudges. So I'm not going to pick one thing because that would be like saying its the worst thing that's ever happened to me. At the same time there are things in my life that I have to re-forgive people for every now and again. Sometimes you'll think you've forgiven someone for a wrong and out of no where you'll start to have feelings of anger all over again. However, I've seen enough in life to know that holding back forgiveness from someone, even if they haven't asked for it, is the worst thing you can do to you. It takes a lot of energy to hate someone and usually the person who has wronged you has long since moved on.

SPEAK UP!

Day 3 - Something you have to forgive yourself for.

So this would be the ugly and embarrassing part I mention earlier. This may sound dumb but I have carried this with me for 13 years. Once on an FFA trip one of my very dear friends, Coca Cola, was berating another girl in front of everyone. She was telling Pepsi what an awful person her father was. I knew better. I knew what a good man he was. He was my bishop and did so much for my family. Obviously no one is perfect but no matter what Coca Cola thought of this man, it was unfair of her to put that burden on his daughters shoulders. Family is a line you just don't cross. I have a mental picture burned into my brain of Pepsi's face while this was happening, how sad she looked. I feel ashamed that I didn't stand up for her or her father and make this ridicule stop. Why is it so difficult to stand up to a friend when they do something you know is not right? Everything inside of me was screaming to say something, anything, even if it was just to change the subject. I didn't, I sat there like a coward. I don't think I'll ever fully forgive myself until I apologize to her and she forgives me.

side note: Obviously the names have been changed because I'm not calling anyone out here, this is about me. Also, it would be ridiculous for anyone to name their kids Coca Cola or Pepsi...seriously don't do it.

On a good day

Day 2 - Something you love about yourself


My hair. I know, I'm vain. But I love the way it looks on a good day. Yeah we all have bad hair days, but sometimes it goes perfect. I love those days. I've always had long hair, except for a few occassions when I've been traumatized by life and for some unknown reason chopped it off. It feels theraputic, like leaving an old life (or ex-husband) behind. I love when my nieces braid it. I love trying new styles. I love the way it protects me when I'm out with the girls and some "don't take no for an answer Adam" won't leave me alone, it's nice to kind of brush it across your shoulder and pretend its a wall and he can no longer see you.

Let's get this party started

No time like the present right.





Day 1 - Something you hate about yourself.

I'm not that creative. I love creative things. I wish I was the type of person who had amazing scrapbooks and homemade cards and lived in a batchorlette pad right out of the Ikea catalog but my house looks more like someone blew up a Dale Earnhardt Jr souvenir trailer. Don't get me wrong, I love my Nascar stuff, but there's always someone who walks in for the first time and has this look like "did a 10 year old boy decorate this or what are we goin for here?".

30 Days of Truth

I saw this on a blog this morning and thought "this seems pretty fun". Then as I started to read what it is I have to be truthful about I thought "this could get ugly and emabarrassing!". So, yep, I'm goin for it.





Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

So Precious!

The cutest baby ever! Maizee Jai Madison